Yeah, sometimes I wonder to myself. What's the point? I've been giving up so much of my time, my life, to this dream, to this vision. Sometimes I feel like it's not real, like the vision was only meant just to keep me going during my times of strife.
Then I remind myself:
The man that holds the vision is the man meant for that vision.
I was not given the idea, the creation, the vision of what I'm building for nothing. I don't feel this obligation and requirement for nothing, because I was chosen to be ordained for that vision, for that creation, for that thought. And that's something that won't ever change.
And yes, someone might get the same thought, the same creation as you, but they will do it differently. They will do it in a way that is accustomed to their programming. And when you really see that, your creation is the most unique one. Regardless of where you come from, even if everyone on planet earth had the same idea, every execution of it would be so drastically different. And I think that's the point. Just to create your version of it.
You weren't given the vision for nothing. You weren't given the will for nothing. You were given this for a specific reason, and you have to. It is your obligation to see it through.
Your desire is a direct correlation to your capacity. Your desire to fulfill this vision is directly showing you that you have the capabilities of doing it.
The doubt is to be human, but to fall into doubt is to forgo your divinity. Divinity to me is not a spiritual concept. We just utilize the word divinity to describe it better. Divinity is your multi-dimensional nature. To understand that you're capable of anything is to understand that you're multi-dimensionally attached to all instances that you will ever do said thing. You are a timeless being. You are an infinite being. And nine times out of ten, you are a spiritual being having a human experience, and a human having a spiritual experience.
And when you understand this as foundation, you start to see the doubt is just a challenge. You have to have resistance against the very things that stop you from actively succeeding in your dream. You will be plagued by distractions the closer that you get to it. You will be courted in different fashions by friends, romantics, to pull you away from your path, but your path is yours alone. You cannot bring anyone that is not meant to be on this with you, and you cannot hope and plead that a person does accompany you, because your path is yours alone.
Do not cry in the face of you needing to leave someone to keep walking your path.
That is a part of the practice. That is life. A tree does not get mad that a branch has fallen. A tree regrows another branch in its place. The animal does not whine at the food lost. The animal continuously finds food until it is fed. It is the direct drive to actively have the success, to actively have what they desire. That is nature. That is life.
What I want you to do after reading this letter: I want you to take the time and look at your own life. There will be days where you're bored shitless. There will be days where you're gleaming with joy. There will be days where you're in the depths of your sorrow. However, the practice I want you to take from this is remembering the vision. Remember the vision, because it was not given to you just to be given, just to have a story for your own. Your story is your program. The vision is your soul's desire, your heart's true want.
To everything that is , to everything that is divine, Asè.